Hell and Back...

I have been through hell and back.  I have nightmares. I have uncontrolled emotions, and hatred running through my blood.   I want the fucking bastard to be found, and apprehended.  I don't want to remain a victim. RAPE is never wanted by any woman, myself included.  God, if I found him right now, I would do sooo many things to him, and he'd be a dead man.  I need to breathe.  I need to remind myself that it wasn't my fault, and that he's a coward that has no balls.  I am not alone.   I can't get the thought of him out of my mind.  I need a hug. I need a friend by my side.  I need to face what happened to me with a positive attitude, and thank the LORD that I am still alive to this day.  I was taken advantage of.  No means NO, God damn it!!!  I'm sorry.  I had to vent.  I'm done.  Time for some sleep, and prayer. :)