The Pain....

Just fucking sucks.  (Sorry for the language, but wow!)  

I'm not going to lie.  I can't even use any other words to describe it.  Some days I'm completely fine... others, it's like I've entered into the fiery pits of hell on earth.  Not quite pleasant, that's for sure.  Oh God, it's times like this when I need to write!!! Seriously- not just journal writing, but any of the stories that I've started or am working on.  I could re-write "A Historic Love," and I think that I'm going to do just that.  It needs major editing. :) It'll distract my mind.

I can't wait for college to start, and I can completely occupy my mind with everything OTHER than reality and the pain that overwhelms me every second of every day.  I'm tired of feeling sad, and at times numb.  I want to be full of life and energy! For crap sake, if I could erase the depression and be Miss Molly Sunshine, I sure as heck would!! Bet on it. 

I'm way too tired to keep on complaining.  I'm sorry everyone- it's just a nightly rant and let-go of emotions.  No one set me up for this roller-coaster ride! 
Loves,

-WRB