Behind That Smile- A Poem that a Friend of Mine Wrote. :)

"Behind this innocent smile,
Lies another feeling,
Behind this laughing girl,
Lies someone healing.

She feels so selfish,
Acts like she's insane,
Only to hide,
The depression and pain.

Tears seem neverending,
When no ones around,
False feelings stop working,
As she hits the ground.

Happy isn't real,
Just a fabricated lie,
Depression takes over,
She doesn't know why.

Lifes almost perfect,
Yet sadness is still there,
She's so confused,
Why can't she care?

She isn't heartless,
Just hurting alot,
Lies are easy,
When it's all you've got."

Courtney Elizabeth Wilson

Wow, can this girl write! :-) I mean, really. As a fellow poet and song lyricist, I mean that from my heart. This spoke to me on many, many volumes. I've been there. I've felt exactly like this girl. Most don't know about my past... the struggles that have been thrown to me, and to my family as well.
Speaking of family...
Bear had a pretty good day today. It was a dialysis day, so of course he wasn't on his A-Game... but hey. I'll take moments as they come to us. He had some difficulty breathing, but some good ol' morphine took care of that. (Thank GOD). :) That's all for now.
More updates soon- I promise. I may even add pictures from my photoshoot... =] <3

-Wendy R. Berry