I don't get it.
Part of me feels like... I'm losing myself completely.
Another part of me hopes that I'm not, and reassures that I'm completely over-reacting.
What am I supposed to feel, now that everything is getting worse so much faster than expected?
Sad? Depressed? Angry? Angsty? Pissed off?
How about all five, plus more!!
....
I don't even know who to rely on anymore... it's not like anyone will listen to me anyhow. Do they even care?
I hate feeling so damn alone...
I need someone... someone to tell me that it's going to be alright-to hug me when I feel like crumbling down and crying.
Ugh. Let me welcome sleep. It feels like that's where I get most comfort from all the hellacious events, lately. Hopefully I will be feeling better in the morning... maybe Mass will do me some good. (Even though I AM pissed at God right now).
<3
-Wendy R. Berry
This Blog is to currently inform all of you followers about my life currently, after the loss of my amazing Dad, Bear. Personal and spiritual, happy and sad. Good and bad. It's my blog, and a side of my Aspieness that most don't get to experience- unless they truly know me. Well- through this, you'll get to know me. For who I truly am. The Aspie Girl.
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